Wednesday, March 26, 2014
We've been making our rounds this year for conventions, and in a couple of weeks, Team Manticore (Bad Grey Matter and Tight Rope Noose) will be at THIS one!
Come see me!
I'll have prints, cats, NEW prints of Donna stuff, some pins, earrings... STUFF.
Show me some love!
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Today, I'm going to tell you the tale of one of the very few typical-of-pretty-much-everyone's-childhood stories I have.
My first (and so far only) was completely avoidable and I can absolutely blame it on my older sister.
No, but like... Seriously.
Okay, not really, but I'll tell you how it all went down.
First off, my sister is almost eight years older than I am, so when I was a kid, I automatically looked up to her and wanted to do as she said, regardless of whether or not that was a good decision.
I have since learned.
Many years ago, my family was stopping by a little shop that opens in the Summer for hotdogs, ice cream, and the like.
I was looking forward to these things.
Instead, I got this.
We were standing at the top of a hill:
Now, most children do want to roll down hills.
I understand this.
I was not most children.
So, to begin with, I really just did not want to do the normal-child thing of rolling down the hill.
Grass is dirty, worms freaked me out, sometimes grass made me itchy (which got worse with age), I feared rolling right into traffic... and so on.
With some coaxing, I (for whatever reason) was convinced that doing this thing was actually a proper plan.
Much like her frustration when I was not a fluent English speaker at two years old, all she wanted was to have me experience an authentic childhood thing.
All I wanted was ice cream.
So, I roll, like any other child would have done.
And, of course, I roll over a bee.
You know, despite the literal pain in my ass, I remember being very concerned about the bee.
I pictured a bee-crime scene and I wondered if his bee family would miss him.
Perhaps they'd send the bee-bulance, but it would "bee" of no use.
I had killed him.
With my butt.
We rushed home for an embarrassing round of "Here, hold that chair while Mommy takes a tweezer to your ass,"
And I resigned myself to a life inside, forever, because screw the outside world and its hills.
In case you are on the edge of your seat wondering, yes.
Yes, I totally did get some ice cream.
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Let's take a moment to talk about rejection.
It sounds like a dirty, horrible, hurtful thing, but it's really just a very formal way of saying "no."
Sometimes, these rejections are done in weird ways.
For example, I was once broken up with by a man I was not dating.
I had been effectively stalking his housemate and sort of using him to do it.
WOW that sounded really bad, all typed out.
Well, it's not really incorrect, so we'll keep it.
I did legitimately want to start a friendship with this guy anyway.
Then I learned why I shouldn't.
With no advances, with no mention of feelings, with complete and total base-line friendship, he still got concerned that he was leading me on.
Leading me on to what?
Do so many people really assume attraction when someone is just being friendly?
He took me aside in a convenience store to politely tell me, "Look, I like you a lot, and I do find you attractive, but you just aren't my type, you know? I'm really sorry. This isn't going to work out."
He waited for my response, which was just kind of a face of blank confusion.
I think I maybe was supposed to cry or something?
I was so confused that I just kind of blinked at him until my eyebrow slowly went up.
"Maybe he's practicing for someone else and I just missed that part of the conversation" I thought to myself.
Eventually, I just said, "okay" and that was that.
We didn't hang out after that day.
I'm sure he thinks it was because I was heartbroken, but really, I just didn't want to accidentally "lead him on" by…
I don't know.
Don't get me wrong, I've had plenty of real rejections in my life, but I hardly ever openly tried enough to require one.
I've even been stood up.
More than once.
The thing is, with relationships, I had a tendency to wait around for Mr. or Ms. Perfect and when neither showed up, I'd just go to a person who was nice enough, even if I wasn't attracted to him.
This is a terrible plan and it never ended well.
Often, the guys turned out to be not-so-nice either.
Eventually, I stopped that, (after everything went to Hell a few years ago) and I grabbed the butt of my Knight in an effort to not be shy about it.
(He was wearing pants. I'm not sure why I didn't illustrate it that way.)
Okay, so I went from one side of the spectrum to the other, but it worked, so shut up.
When I was a kid, I didn't take rejection well, but I was also TERRIBLE at talking to people, which makes me wonder if half the people who rejected me even had any idea that they had done so.
Getting called a "failed experiment" by a girl is an interesting thing, but somehow didn't make me cry as much as all the "I'll totally dance with you" and then NEVER coming up to me at all.
Did I ever go up to them after the initial asking?
Goes both ways.
Sometimes "rejection" is what we make up in our own heads.
Even in my happy relationship now, he and I were both so messed up from previous endeavors that we spent the first half a year (or more) worried that the other was just leading us on.
We referred to this as "Carrie-ing," and I can pretty much describe the fear I've had for most of my life this way.
Seriously, our own minds can be horrible friends to us.
Sometimes though, rejection comes in the form of little pieces of paper.
I am proud to say that out of high school, I applied to seven art schools and got into eight (not that you can tell by this blog).
However, that number evened out when I went for an interview AFTER getting an initial acceptance letter for a school that was specifically for cartoonists.
They liked me a lot, which is why they sent that letter before the actual in-face interview.
Then, they asked if I only wanted to be a cartoonist, and the answer is really no.
I want to draw, but I also write, sculpt, and all kinds of things.
It was suggested that I'd probably be happier getting a more rounded art degree, but that I could always go there again if I changed my mind.
THEN they sent a rejection letter.
I have one of each from this school.
More recently, I was up for an interview for an internship.
I was really excited/terrified.
She emailed me exactly twenty four hours before the interview to apologize a thousand times and explain that they found someone.
Weird excuses were made, which made me think none of it was her choice.
In such an email, is it really so hard to just say, "The position has been filled" and leave it at that?
I get that she apparently wanted to keep that interview, and I'm bummed that I have to keep looking, but for reals.
Partly because of how it was written, it felt a little like I was the nerdy kid at school who had landed a date to prom with the head cheerleader, only for her to last-minute tell me she's going with my friend instead.
"Like, OMG! I am so, so sorry, but Billy has a reaaalllly nice car, so…"
Now, a surefire way for me to want to reject someone else is the misspelling of my name.
This is a digital age where everyone is emailing all the time.
There is ZERO reason to misspell a name when it was just right in front of you a moment ago.
Hell, copy/paste if you have to.
I'll never know.
On social media, saying my name in a formal way is just creepy, because if I already know a person in real life, and that person is messaging me on a private only-me thing…
You really don't have to make it a formal letter to explain that you are writing to only me.
If you're someone I don't actually know in real life, that's fine.
Otherwise, stop that.
If someone does do that, I wish this could also be the kind of person who looks at the message to see how my name is spelled, or remembers me enough from previous encounters to spell it correctly.
I imagine the person typing along, thinking, "Oh, jeez… Um… Screw it, I'll just make it up. I can't be assed to read the message she just sent!"
And you know?
Sometimes, a little wrong is fine.
So long as it's basically the same name, awesome.
There are lots of spellings to everything.
Then there are cases like this one time...
Okay, my email is after my comic, Deddrie.com.
My EMAIL is not my name.
I signed an email -RG recently.
'Cause, you know, these are my initials.
The response I got?
"Hello, Debbie" …
The fuck is the Debbie? I mean, I know it's a name, but it isn't mine.
This means she not only ignored the signature, but then ALSO misread my email address, and then CONTINUED doing it, no matter how I signed emails after that, and how many emails she sent to me.
After this incident, with a completely different person in a completely different situation, I not only stated my full name in the body of the email, but I signed it with my full first name.
I got this strange butchered thing that has never been a name ever.
The first couple of letters were okay…
And then it just became strange and phonetically completely different.
Sunday, March 9, 2014
The first day of the convention went rather well.
Housemate and I made him a mask, as seen here:
Obviously, I took this before he painted it.
Though he didn't get a chance to do a cosplay contest.
Still, there were events, stuff got sold, we met some new people, and we talked to some old friends... Well, I did, anyway.
Rob made us turkey sandwiches for lunch and everything.
There were games of both video and board varieties, and there were prizes to be won.
Or, as one announcer stated,
While this was a very busy con for those actively participating in the events, it was not so busy for the venders.
This meant that we had some spare time.
I made more stuff,
I drew stuff,
I went over my to-do list,
I drank too much water and had to go to the strange bathroom that doesn't make any sense to me...
You know what, let's take a moment to talk about that bathroom.
I was told the men's toilet area was not this way.
First off, I understand why that mirror would be so low. If someone were to be in a wheelchair, that would be really useful.
However, why were all the other mirrors segregated to another room?
And why did this other room require one solitary chair and trash-bin??
All that being said, it was a really nice, clean bathroom. A+
Now, while there wasn't a regular cosplay contest, there was the "Iron Cosplay" that involved using only newspaper and tape in a short amount of time to make a costume.
My favorite was the narwhal,
Followed closely by Cthulhu.
I started texting my friend at one point...
I braided my hair a few million times...
I complained about the cold a lot...
Oh, I also totally accidentally stabbed myself with this pencil:
I still have a red dent in my wrist.
I took pictures, but I won't post any here.
I'm fine, by the way.
EDIT: Almost a month later, and I still have a scar.
What else did I do?
Well, I spent a lot of time coming up with randomly terrible scenarios about everything for no particular reason...
And I spent some time watching Rob play a videogame on his tablet...
When people were actively at the table, I kept my eye out for any wandering children.
I also worried too much about my prices being too high or too low at any given time.
To give you an idea of what our table looked like from our end, here are some photos! (Are they still called that, if taken with a phone? Phone-tos.)
So many chairs. This was before they were all filled with gamers.
So many earrings.
A bowl of stuffed cats.
There were actually a lot of other things, but I got tired of taking pictures after a while.
I even drew a thing for a sign for a thing!
Day two went pretty smoothly, since we already knew how we were going to be set up.
They had the "Iron Cosplay" again, this time with the best little girl ever.
Rob said if we ever entered such a contest, he would dress me as the shoe from Monopoly.
It started as a mocking sort of plead from me not to ever do this:
And then it became weirdly dire in my head:
Eventually, tiredness took over.
And some really intense back pain.
Around this time, I started making little stories in my head about the cats...
I wasn't the only one feeling the burn of it, so we left a little early. Still, it was a fun, productive day.
I highly recommend the Albany Games Fest at UAlbany next year!